Is it my fault or am I in a place which sees the world differently. As far as I could remember I have been appreciated among friends, family and teachers throughout school for my good manners. But all that changed when I stepped in my college. The world that I knew off turned topsy-turvy. I was tagged as, “the girl with the attitude” from the very first semester. I didn’t find any difference in me apart from shifting towards technology that stormed the social media. But again that lasted for just half a year. I got bored of it and didn’t find much need to log on everyday just to see the newsfeed and chit chat with friends. Be it social media or real life, for every word I uttered I was scrutinized and judged. It made me question am I running for an ISO Certification for my character? I have been for long bold enough to speak out my thoughts on any stage. Little did I know speaking out meant you are having an “attitude” problem. I agree that something is really wrong with me if my teachers find fault in me.Most of the time I either be invisible or a teacher’s pet. On the other hand I fail to understand what is bugging my friends and seniors. Yes, I have eloquent English slang and communication skill which everyone would if brought up in a girl’s convent. And thanks to your criticism I did go through a phase where I almost became a bad converser in English until I rebooted myself. I give a nod to your thoughts and facts- since we don’t have English as our mother tongue we would not be the masters but does that mean we should not improve our self to become the masters? Is it really necessary to call those who speak effectively with names that hurts so bad. Another contrast I found between my school and college was the relationship with seniors. Back in my school days seniors were so friendly that we considered them as our own sisters. Pranking and talking crap together was an enjoyment of a lifetime. Now am expected to consider them as higher rank army officials? What is the need to inscribe in the fear ? Why draw a line between juniors and seniors? Why subside the talents ? Why command a virtual rule that is unwritten in the official rules and regulations of college? Why allow the jealousy to make the better of you? If a junior has better skills motivate and build the inner courage rather than breaking down the wall to crumbles.
In a nutshell I am just SICK of you calling me to have an attitude problem. I was not brought up to be a naïve little girl who just nods her head forcing herself to be accepted by the society. I am the change for my own self.
The Girl with the Attitude.